Hot…

CA is extremely hot these days. When going out, I have felt burnt by hot atmostphere and hot winds. It’s so hot and me too…

Recently I have felt that my temper has been changed, not to a good direction but the reverse. I easily get angry, as I used to be 6 years ago. I thought that after Ups and Downs in my life, I should be more balanced and can control myself in any situation. But NO. Outside is hot and I’m hot too!!! I don’t know why and don’t know how to fix it… So sad!

Being tired from work and stressfull due to my study at school … are not reasons for my hot temper. What is the real reason and how can I get rid of it? I hate it but…

Broken

Source: Internet

I have decided to stop the relationship I have just set up with him. Cause even though I’m trying, I can’t overcome the culture differences between us. In his eyes, I’m ultra conservative. And in my eyes, he is hot-temper, can’t understand and respect Asian culture. It’s funny when people get gather together, they just see good things from each other. When they say goodbye – they see the bad. We still love each other but we can’t solve the problems between us. One of us has to step back. He can’t and neither can I…

Finally, I just stay with myself and accept that I can’t love anyone else much more than  myself. Finally I find that I’m still just an innocent person in love, don’t know how to love another, don’t know how to keep love. Or maybe god thinks I don’t deserve to get his present. That’s fine. Loneliness is my destiny and I will accept it as my life has been so far…

SAD!