Last Sunday of Feb 2011…

27 02 2011

It’s was darker and darker in Fullerton – 6:18pm in Fullerton… I had have a full Sunday at home – the only day during a week I don’t have to go to work – A rare day I’m at home ’cause I often go out every Sunday for hiking, for visiting somewhere or some people.

Sinking myself in school stuff – yes I have to study for a  midterm on Monday – and in songs I like…, then cooking for myself – prepare food for a whole busy week…My mum will visit me next May, but I haven’t prepared anything for her procedure and her trip…Just think about one day I will see her after 3 years, wow, we may cry and then may smile…can’t wait until that moment…

My health is not as good as before – even though I haven’t been seriously sick during almost 3 years. Sometimes I thought I almost died because of being exhausted – but I didn’t know why I could still overcome….Maybe I did do exercise a lot in the past and saved my health to waste now…How about the future…no health saving for the future ’cause it has been used up so far…the first thing I have done is asking for stopping teaching every Saturday morning at Generation 2000 School in Westminster. I really don’t want this but that’s the only way I can do for my health…I will miss my students – Becky Trinh, Kelly Trinh, Phong La, Long Van, Oanh, Davis, Kevin, and… will return the school to visit them when I have time. And maybe I will get back to teach some day when feeling better with my health.

Ay ya, back to my study, good luck tomorrow, LitDra! :-)





Empty

12 02 2011

Someone gets back. A relationship is retrieved. In exchange, I hurt someone else. Empty mind. Empty heart. I don’t know what I’m doing now…

I still work very hard everyday. A lot people around, but no one can fill my vacant head… Feel so sad and really worry for myself. Keep doing like this way, keep living like this … Is it a good choice…

Sometimes I just recognize that enjoying the food I love or seeing a boy’s smile when he can understand what I have taught him makes me feel my life more meaningful… Feel warm because sometimes I know how to treat well to myself and because I’m giving my hand to others…

I’m looking for happiness…sometimes it is just very simple…like the food I made for myself yesterday (I haven’t eaten it for 3 years!!!) and like a smile of my student today…

Time flies fast. Just count my tiny happiness each day and hope that I have more days full filled with happiness  than empty days…








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